Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Candy Crush Crutch

The reason for writing this blog is a noble one. I'm waiting for Candy Crush Saga to give me more lives, which, last time I checked, was at 16.52 and counting. That should be enough time to write a thrilling entry.

My slight obsession with a game that I play on Facebook every day, the first one I have ever downloaded, actually, was an unintentional distraction/miracle.  Recent events in my life have held my mind captive, and no matter how hard I try and pray I can't free it sometimes. So I play Candy Crush.  I also downloaded Words with Friends and play that on the train.  For the first time in years I actually enjoy logging on to Facebook - all my notifications happy Candy Crush lives - that's miracle #2.

Look. I'm coping here. Defense mechanisms are just fine for a period of time, my psychology classes say so. And my therapist would too, if I had one right now, if I could afford one.

So this is me, thanking God and the creators of Candy Crush for keeping my wee brain occupied, giving me little miracles, little wins.  I also freak out when I lose levels. Ask my roommates, they know when I am playing. They know when I'm wining... and losing.

This reminds me of my mom playing Tetris.  She played Tetris all the time. Us kids had a Gameboy and she would steal it and play Tetris. Then she got her own see-through purple one and wore the buttons out playing Tetris so much.  While I don't know for sure, I have a small inkling she might have been distracting herself just like me.

Hey, this might not be the best thing I ever did for myself, but cut me some slack, I don't exactly do this much. Candy Crush is my crutch - OK?  Analyzing this is actually rather fun for me, because I'm not that person, not the game person, the app person. I didn't get it. Until now. I do. A little bit. I think.

Me being the awkward, self-aware person that I am, of course I am wondering why I am doing this.  Some people probably just play games for fun. I play them out of emotion. Out of the need to do something, beat something, win, or at least, keep going. I can keep going at this, and it's not going to end. It's comforting. Candy Crush will never leave me.

That's a slight exaggeration. I'm not that desperate. Really, I'm not. Things are on the up and up, people. I can feel it. I also think it has been 17 minutes, so, I gotta go.



Curt said...

I love that game!

Life with Kaishon said...

Emma, I didn't know anything sad happened to you. I am going to pray right this second for you. Reading your post was the last thing I was going to do before falling asleep.

I haven't ever played that yet...but I do play tetris. It is on my phone and I play so often my co workers think I might have a problem. That could be true.

Thinking of you tonight. I will go and read some older posts to see what I missed.

Emma Boucher said...

You didn't miss anything - I didn't write about it. Thank you for the prayers :)

Jiggs said...

It's my dream to pass you. :) I'm crutching right beside you.

Jiggs said...

Its my dream goal to pass you. I'm crushing...crutching too girl. Ain't nothin wrong with that.

Donna Boucher said...

I'm glad you have Candy Crush. Do you see pieces when you close your eyes? When that happens... You will be just like your momma.

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