Friday, August 24, 2012

surf that internet (or don't)

Confession: I am slightly internet impaired. When it comes to surfing the web as an educated, enlightened person, I become as competent as a three-year-old. Maybe even less so, I have seen some three-year-olds find YouTube video's I would have never even thought of.  This is what happens when I open my internet browser:

Check Gmail.

Open new tab. Check Facebook. Look for thirty-seven seconds (get annoyed at something). Close Facebook.

Open new tab. Don't know what to do next. Remember to check mom's blog.

Open new tab. Go to my blog. Start to write something. Get half way/almost to completion of blog.

Get distracted.

The end.

Any usefulness beyond this is...beyond me. How did this become of a twenty-three year old in 2012? Shouldn't I be an expert? Though I love to question and think about the uses of internet, and am by far happier not using it than using it too much, there is a good amount that exists. Like with everything in the world: moderation and thoughtfulness, some words to live by, I believe. My solution to not wasting time on the internet is to not use it at all. This solution is no solution. It's just so draining. All the websites, all the words. I literally feel my soul being sucked from me the more pictures, videos and words that flash before my eyes with every click.

Give me one book at a time, in my hands, I say, or none at all. Nooks and I are not friendly.

This is all well and good, except to write, to blog, to have a presence on the internet seems unbearably necessary. Sigh.

I have the pretty pictures, the credentials, the tools, but the whirlwind of the world wide web intimdates me. There, I said it. I am intimdated, overwhelmed, sensory overload happens easily to this girl. One thing at a time. One thing at a time.

 Did I mention my multitasking skills are 0? Maybe even below that. They simply don't exist. No wonder the internet gives me the creeps. Creeeeeepy I say.

TwentySomething lost in the WWW.


gina said...

I just came back from vacation, where I journaled about what I learned. One of the things I learned was 1) spend less time searching the internet, and more time with my family where I belong. I tend to get distracted, only that distractedness leads me to the internet (blogs, then news, then time suckers like us weekly and people magazine). I once knew all the celebrity babies names. Sad, but true. So after reading your blog (never a waste of time!) I am logging off now. Going to enjoy the quiet of the morning, and then time with my family. Later - I will log on to work...but only work. I pretend to be a good multitasker. I am really not.

Donna Boucher said...

You are the eye of a hurricane.
An old soul.
I understand.
Just be you.

Anonymous said...

Dear Emma, I am the same way, just can't get too into the WWW and when I do I come away bleary-eyed with a mind too full of stuff. Having just come home from a family vacation, like Gina, I am going to try to not get sucked into the ether world as much. I love coming here and to your mom's blog, because you feel like family to me. Also, it is a gift to concentrate on one thing at a time, to give it your full attention. Multitasking is not all it is cracked up to be in my mind. Like your mom, I say "be you" and God bless and keep you always. love, nana jep

Life with Kaishon said...

It really is a time suck.
I wish I didn't like it so much. Darn it.

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